February 2012
11 posts
“I wanna know what you see when you look in the mirror on the day you’re feeling...”
– Andrea Gibson, “Asking Too Much” (via vivalacaitlin)
So, yeah. That 24-hr. period where you romanticized the idea of shaking your money-maker, showed up to a Lower East Side audition (to dance for a DJ Company) you found on Craigslist, and promptly realized: THIS IS *UTTERLY* INCONGRUOUS WITH *ALL* THE WORK I’M TRYING TO DO ON MYSELF.
Now, this gig wouldn’t even have required me to take off my clothes. But I just got a very brief,...
Letter from a Haunted Room by Lisa Sewell
Dear K., there’s a mosquito stain between the pages of your book, a streak of platelets beside my index finger. The broken microscopic cells have escaped the hurly-burly of the wide aorta, the stark unholy flow through veins and tubules. Don’t get me wrong. I don’t mistake anatomy for emotion. My heart is meat and gristle, like Artaud’s: a simple pump, it never falters. If I weep it’s for the...
An Exercise That Everyone Should Try...
Last night, in Christina Berkly and Ran Baron’s Valentine’s Day For the Rest of Us Workshop at NYC’s Reflections Yoga, we did several exercises designed to unearth our deeper needs, feelings, expectations, and desires. Let me describe to you one free-association exercise that I think EVERYONE should try [in a safe, intentional space, with your boyfriend/girlfriend/partner, etc.,...
Last Night: Ran Baron's Lecture On Tantra
…He made an interesting point: The first time a couple has sex, the man concentrates 95% of his energy/attention on the woman’s experience. What does she think of me? What is she going to tell her friends? Am I good enough? Is she enjoying this? He focuses only about 5% of his energy on his own pleasure. And guess what: The same goes for the woman. Now, if each party is only 5% present...
“Unless it’s mad, passionate, extraordinary love, it’s a waste of your time....”
– Dream of an Insomniac (via believour)
Excerpt from Willing by Lorrie Moore
“Men could be with whomever they pleased, but women had to date better, kinder, richer, and bright, bright, bright, or else people got embarrassed. It suggested sexual things. ’I’m a very average person,’ she said desperately, somehow detecting that Charlotte already knew that, knew that deep, dark, wildly obvious secret of that…”
January 2012
22 posts
Let Birds by Linda Gregg
Eight deer on the slope
in the summer morning mist.
The night sky blue.
Me like a mare let out to pasture.
The Tao does not console me.
I was given the Way
in the milk of childhood.
Breathing it waking and sleeping.
But now there is no amazing smell
of sperm on my thighs,
no spreading it on my stomach
to show pleasure.
I will never give up longing.
I will let my hair stay long.
The rain...
“Okay, yes, there is a homosexual agenda, okay? There’s just two things on it: 1....”
– Elvira Kurt (via fuckyeahfemmes)
Surrounded by Sheep and Low Ground by Linda Gregg
When death comes, we take off our clothes
and gather everything we left behind:
what is dark, broken, touched with shame.
When Death demands we give an accounting,
naked we present our lives in bundles.
See how much these weigh, we tell him,
refusing to deny what we have lived.
Everything that is touched by light
loves the light. We the stubborn-as-grass,
we who reel at the taste of sap and...
Excerpt from Veronica by Mary Gaitskill
…I remember touching the small bones in the center of Veronica’s chest. I remember her surprise at being touched that way, the slight shift in her facial expression, as if feelings of love and friendship had been wakened by the intimate touch. The subtle muscles between her chest bones seemed to open a little. Then I left. I never should’ve touched her like that and then...
Meaning... Placement of birthmarks on the face... →
#19 - You have money luck and many good friends, so this is a good mole to have. Your weakness is that you tend to succumb to the charms of the opposite sex. In your life, it is this that could get you into hot water, so do cool your ardor!
Meeee?! NOOOO. (HA!) :P
Excerpt from Veronica by Mary Gaitskill
If I do see Rene’s rose-colored lamp beside my deathbed, it will be beautiful to me. I will want to touch and linger on every thread of its carefully woven fabric, especially the bits of gold that you half-see when you lean up close to shut off the light and then forget. I will cry to think that I ever forgot. I will cry to lose it. It will be the same if Jean-Paul appears before my bed in a...
“Even when you’re standing up you look like you’re lying down, but...”
– Crush, Richard Siken
Had a dream that my mouth was sewn shut. Subconscious: could you be any clearer?
Snippet of an article by Arjuna Ardagh - "Why It...
Many many years ago, I went to Bali for a vacation, on my own. I met up with some other young travelers there and we hired a Jeep to take us on a tour of the island. We drove up right to the highest point of the island, where Tourists don’t usually go. Our guide took us to one of the most sacred temples. It was surrounded by a big brick wall with an ornate entrance. After removing our...
“Touch my skin so I can be myself.
Let me feel you enter each limb bone by bone,...”
– Rumi (via terramantra)
Completely counters my New Years resolution. But I <3 it.
Some Musings On Kissing, Kisses, and Kissers
I’m confounded. Are there ‘good kissers’ and ‘bad kissers,’ or are two given people simply compatible kissers or incompatible kissers? Could someone who I think of as a bad kisser actually be a good kisser to someone else? Is a good kisser someone who’s sensually/kinesthetically sensitive, perceptive, and aware, someone who knows how to read someone else’s...
December 2011
20 posts
2012 -- I'm comin' for ya! :)
Bring it all on: Books and books and hours of writing and late-night dance parties and new yoga poses and Chocolove and deep kisses and Kirtan and tattoos and fast driving and LETTING IT THE FUCK OUT and friends, friends, friends. Ciao, 2011… it was a fine affair, but now it’s over. ;)
“Like any other man I was born with a knife in one hand and a wound in the other....”
– Gregory Orr
“Don’t be too timid and squeamish about your actions. All life is an...”
– Ralph Waldo Emerson
A Book Of Music by Jack Spicer
Coming at an end, the lovers
Are exhausted like two swimmers. Where
Did it end? There is no telling. No love is
Like an ocean with the dizzy procession of the waves' boundaries
From which two can emerge exhausted, nor long goodbye
Like death.
Coming at an end. Rather, I would say, like a length
Of coiled rope
Which does not disguise in the final twists of its lengths
Its endings.
But, you...
Ghost in the Land of Skeletons by Christopher...
If not for flesh’s pretty paint, we’re just a bunch of skeletons, working hard to deny the fact of bones. Teeth remind me that we die. That’s why I never smile, except when looking at a picture of a ghost, captured by a camera lens, in a book about the paranormal. When someone takes a picture of a spirit, it gives me hope. I admire the ones who refuse to go away. Lovers scorned...
“We like work that breaks the heart. That leaves us in a place that we don’t...”
– Burnside Review (on submissions)
In Blackwater Woods by Mary Oliver
Capped my night with a beautiful yoga class, tea/good conversation with a friend, and now… this:
Look, the trees are turning their own bodies into pillars of light, are giving off the rich fragrance of cinnamon and fulfillment, the long tapers of cattails are bursting and floating away over the blue shoulders of the ponds, and every pond, no matter what its name is, is nameless now. Every...
“1) “Jeanette, if you didn’t have six consecutive orgasms within one...”
– Janisimo (my mother) on Life. Love. Stress. and Set-backs. Yes.
“Whatever needs to be maintained through force is doomed.”
– Henry Miller (via dylansp)
If you came blessed with a heart that can break, you’re lucky.
“Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.”
– T.S. Elliot
In a Beautiful Country by Kevin Prufer
A good way to fall in love
is to turn off the headlights
and drive very fast down dark roads.
Another way to fall in love
is to say they are only mints
and swallow them with a strong drink.
Then it is autumn in the body.
Your hands are cold.
Then it is winter and we are still at war.
The gold-haired girl is singing into your ear
about how we live in a beautiful country.
Snow sifts from the...
FYI: Love isn’t supposed to be placid. Relationships are flawed and messy because *people* are flawed and messy. If you can’t stomach a little neediness/vulnerability… if you bolt when the less attractive aspects of your girlfriend’s personality begin to surface… if you expect your relationships with women to be consistently and...
